Heart Sandtrap

The more you struggle the more that sand pit of suspicion, doubt and jealousy will eat you up, where your reason and clarity will quickly be devoured by the hungry belly of acceptance. You're in so deep you justify every intention, waiting for the sun to shine... but little do you know; only the cold lonely rain will wash it all away. Is it wishful thinking or denial? How do you know when your eyes have been tainted with so much and your mind enveloped by your heart? I know how you feel, I can imagine how it is to be caught in your own web of deception to hold together this fragile state you are in with barely visible threads that could be broken by a gentle breeze. I cannot blame you for the way you are, your heart is no longer yours for how can you think for yourself when you are only thinking for him/her? It may all appear crystal clear to me because I stand and watch on the outside thru this looking glass, how do I reflect this upon you? Detachment helps us to see clearly, but love will keep you alive... I guess we'll leave it up again to the sands of time to unveil everything to you. In the fire of love, hate, deception, jealousy, and pain... the sand will heat into a mirror where only your reflections prevails and you will see that all the happiness and pain stems from the person you see in that reflection. So how do you want to feel?

Comments

[Casey]

Hi my friends and fellow readers, i've been extremely busy with work lately, and haven't had time to update my blog for quite some time now, i do apologize. Thanks for all the messages and comments, i will keep writing as and when i can, not to worry. Cheers everyone! =)

[Lady]

like you were reading my thoughts...amazing

and i though i'd be the first to comment...harharhar...

[quija]

You really have a gift. Your words seemed complicated but the meanings are real and true. YOu have a way with words that can connect; relate to your readers. Thank you for sharing your gift. God Bless, drunkard! :)

[Cj]

WOW. you just read my mind. lol. I guess the concept of denial is a universal one we all experience at one point. It's only when others open our tainted eyes do we see the deception we've put ourselves through.

I like what you have to say. And you provide us Asian Americans a literary voice. Have you done any printed publications. I find it hard to imagine you haven't.

[davidson]

well, add me up at my friendster acc.

[leonora]

keep smiling,keep shining,keep dreaming,go on,in GOD"s perfect timing and manner your dreams will come true.
your new angel,
UNI DOMPOR

[akhmad]

please renew my friendster

[jAm]

WOW. you just read my mind. lol. I guess the concept of denial is a universal one we all experience at one point. It's only when others open our tainted eyes do we see the deception we've put ourselves through.

I like what you have to say. And you provide us Asian Americans a literary voice. Have you done any printed publications. I find it hard to imagine you haven't.

[佳璐]

你好.我故意用华文来留言...呵呵...否则,你会看不到吧?其实也没什么,只是要你加油而已...然后,如果可以的话,可不可以用浅白一点的英文呢?因为...看得真的有点~吃力.=P

[julie]

hello there,,ur right about love,,,where can i find steadfast love,,,living in this crazy world of us,,,

[julie]

yeah,,keep on smiling coz miles miles miles away,,ur smile will gives the heart break away,,though deep,deep inside the heart is aching,,,,

[Joanna Edraline]

hi casey i read ur msg in ur blog,yeah u ryt about love..so much pain felt inlove causes suicide in the world,,gudluck

[Janice]

are you brokenhearted?

[TIO]

nice writing..
keep writing..
n I will keep reading till I can do writing,,,
writing what I am thinking..
:)

[Daye]

I like your blog.. Heart sandtrap.. =) Keep on writing.. =)

[roger]

hmmpp,,,this seems to be an interesting point of view for a person..

[Dr. Hakimah Ler]

gulp.

[Enaj]

Hi u read also my mind and my feeling I'm amaze with your thoughts keep writing

[jocelyn]

hi, i like your blog heart very interesting point of view.

[Jo]

I just don't get it...How do people like you blog other people's feeling. Why don't you just talk about yourself? Are you sure you feel every detail of whoever your subject is? Or you just based it on what she/he said? How about people who based the conversation from the people they talk to and for the sake of conversing they adapt the situation so the flow is spontaneous and the main goal is to share words from the past that might help the one who is in need?
Well if talking to friends about past pains means I have not yet over it. I'd rather keep my mouth shut. You mean if I share the great feeling of love to friends, I'm trap to my own quicksand? What if the purpose is for people to believe and not give up on love?
This country sucks from rotten politics and society, the only time the country is in bliss is when Pacman won his fight.
Talk about hopes next time.

[diane]

i just can relate to what you've written.

[jEmOh]

bleh!

[sHekiNa]

nkarelate ako....see my shoutout??? I am hoping that "my sun will come to shine again"...... hopefully =)

[almira]

you are really a good writer, ...I just wish I can choose on what emotion to feel but no...it is spontaneous.But thanks it really made me think for a while...

[bRaTt iNeLla17]

.._.,hai
mztAh naH.,!

[PY]

hi, i like your heart sandtrap.Interesting articles.
Keep writing...cheers

[♫I hatE yOu]

_HaI_
i sing_in to this bLOg

[raquel]

hi

[glenda]

u just read my thoughts, how'd u do that?...i was busy dwelling with my pains, and really cant think of anything but the thoughts of my husband having an affair, i could only shed tears and my anger slowly devouring me up,.. if i threw up which i knew any moment from now, i will...coz i cant hold on any longer.We will end up separately... but what about the kids and their future?...kaya ko b sila i sacrifice? . I'll try to be strong but i never knew for how long i could stand the pain.I'll try to hold on with my HEART SANDSTRAP. with God's help i will.

[jennylyn]

when i say..."i care about you" and "i start thinking of you" then "already missing you" meaning i have "FEELINGS" for you...and its "TRUE".....

[jenny]

are you a psychologist or psychiatrist or just a writer with a wild imagination... i thank my this old computer shop that i saw from a corner street and now i am reading your write up. they are great... ooopsss, sorry i'm not even your friend to say those. anyway keep writing and i hope to keep reading your articles. i hope next time you write about siblings:-)

[iCe]

nice one =)

[cherrymae]

firs and for most,hav a nice day to u...........ure totally right.past is past,we should face now on to our future.love is always present in our heart.and God is the source of it.

[nikki]

You've got great thoughts to share!!! keep on writing!!! we love it!!! (:>

[KAY]

wow, seems like you got tons of reader Casey! I read one of your entries some time in November and i just love how you materialize thoughts and emotions into words...

(^.~)

[zheven]

great job...nice work...

[tamtam]

Freed!!!!!!!!!

[tamtam]

thats what I feel last week I was supposed to read your article last week but I hate the thought of your first sentence so just read it now...bullseye it was the real me last week....grrrrr..it happened again am i supposed to believe that sometimes words really struck you with indiference and all you need to do is to know why?????

[alex]

ok

[Mercedes]

hi,such article 's quite weird for me,well.it is your wide imaginations,or you're just an artist of some kind of art.anyway i enjoy it. keep it up what you're suppose to accomplish in your life.

[ck]

haix...juz break up recently with my gurl fren.I can understand wat u trying to say.

[erien]

hi..can i shared to ur friend..pls add me at charm4rintyas$yahoo.com.key cu guyz?

[Vhin]

whatever is troubling me is something that happens to others too.. weather it is grief, anxiety or depression that is making mo feel out of control, it helps to remember that many other decent people have suffered just as much as i am, and have made it trough. they broke down, admitted they needed help,and then learned how to fight their way back to emotional health.they have shown the rest of us we ca take it -- and triumph!!!!!!
i really like your heart suntrap , interesting articles. i just can relate to what you've written. but thanks it really made me think for a while....

[Vhin]

please add me at my friendster acct

[steph]

hi??????????

[steph]

pls add me"""""

[jaypee]

hi!!!!!!!

[Genaline]

Quite impressed...As if you are reading my thoughts.. and my emotions.. a real writer indeed.. touching the soul.. keep it up!!

[Sonny]

wwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaa........... what a crazy world ....! iam on the intense of fire while reading it. it could be very complicated living on a shameful life i think. i can relate but i dint really understand ...are you implicating the real lies...out of this feeling. god speed, hope you add me on your friendlists.. thanks

[ghenalyn]

the saw is the law hahaha..

[venus]

Hello nice writing, nice blog, Continue with it. Take care. Add me at friendstar...?

[mary ann]

hi...nice writing hmmmm....please add me at my friendster acct...

[jojo]

wa

[Karl Joseph]

I can relate to this..I am trap in my own sandtrap...I'm struling to get out of it, but what cani do..pain and heartaches makes me stronger..

[jenah]

I know you will not understand this but this is how I want to express my thoughts...

Ito na yung pangalawang beses na nagbasa ako ng blog mo... magkaibang topic pero iisa lang ang tanong na iniwan mo sa isip ko... "Paano kaya magmahal si Casey?"

[Danica]

hi...ganda ng blog mu inspiring...esp. ung unrequitted love it made me realized something...you unconciously helped me..so thank you..

[Chiara]

hi,there.i dunno u.but i accidently read ur article.it's very inspiring,though i spent much time 2 comprehend it.anyway,i jus drop by here 2 tell u,u hav a great mind.

[Simply Red]

Your level of relationship maturity is quite getting up, hehe. Good! Actually, it's easy for us to say their flaws on love & relationship to somebody else. What best could we offer is just being there for them.

This love & relationship thing makes us miserable sometimes. And being miserable is interesting, it sometimes brings the best in you, hehe. Just always have a friend or someone you can always count on in times like this in your life. WE cannot tackle it alone & remember we are NOT always alone to be feeling miserable.